Why do I feel fat?

Nothing's changed since my last post but I just don't understand why I feel so gross when I work so hard at feeling good about myself. I've been going to the gym every day and not binging. Ive been eating 1000 to 1200 calories every day and burning 1000. I know thats not healthy but its what I've been doing for the past few months so I'm afraid to change it. It's just not fair that I feel like this because I probably work harder than most people so that I don't feel fat. I need to not binge this weekend. I've made it almost 2 weeks without doing it. I just need to think about how it only makes me feel worse and how bad it is for my body. My body does not deserve to be abused like that.