Not even excited for summer

I know it's been a while. A lot has happened in the past 2 weeks that I don't really want to get into. Let's just say I'm depressed and not excited that my last final is tonight. I've binged almost every day in the past week and feel like a piece of shit. I still can't run so I think that's really topping it all off. When I'm running I don't feel like a nut case that just works out to burn calories but now I can't so I'm at the gym longer trying to burn the same amount of calories and I hate it. I really don't enjoy doing the elliptical. It's so boring. I need to run to feel strong mentally and physically. I never realized how much I depend on it.