After two weeks of not binging I relapsed Saturday night and then again yesterday. I have so many exams and stuff this week and I wasted so much time binging even though I did study my ass off all weekend. Saturday night was weird. I literally stared at the box of granola for ten minutes. Put a piece in my mouth and spit it out but ended up giving in.
My therapy session was good. Dr. Sorger was very helpful as usual. She wants to help me channel my rebellious inner child in other places instead of binging and help me find out who I really am. I tend to identify myself with what I do, so when I do nothing of value or I don't do so well on an exam I feel like a complete waste of life.
I was just feeling so good before I binged and I really didn't want to for my mom. I know it's worrying her and I really don't want to put that extra stress on her. I just want this to end.
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